3.30.2008

Is It The Beginning of the End...?

Let's skip the "It's been such a long time" talk and get down to business...

Another argument has happened in the cove that is my relationship. This time, it was in front of one of her friends (and I was the one with the cool head this time, recommending we speak in private instead of in front of her gal pal). I can't say it was the biggest or harshest argument we've had, but this definitely ranks up there with all the stupid ones. She seriously got pissed at me because I disappeared for about an hour, while she was left to entertain our guests. I just went out in the hallway to have a smoke and some alone time... shit! Excuse me for taking a break from my duties as head clown at the circus.

Anyway, it pissed me off because she made it seem like she couldn't entertain our guests alone. For Christ sake, one "guest" was her best friend and the other was my cousin (who she's cool with). It's not like she was with strangers... It's not like she didn't know where the fucking salt was... She complains about how she doesn't have anything of her own in this house, and how she wants to move into our own apartment - yet when given the opportunity to make it her house or to even make it her own gathering, she points the finger at me and makes me look like the ungrateful person who became selfish.

I'm tired of being made to feel like I'm under her. I'm sick and tired of feeling like a butler. I see this last argument as one of the last ones we will ever have. I personally think she made the mistake of rushing over here and moving in with me (just over a year of being together). Couples need space to be themselves. They need their personal space and things. Here, neither of us have that. In a perfect world, we would each have our own place and be in a relationship where seeing each other doesn't turn into an argument.

I've come to the realization that, maybe, I'm not the relationship type. I'm not the fucking family man who is so full of cheer that he can double as jolly ol' St. Nick. Maybe I'm the lifelong single guy who drinks, smokes, has meaningless sex, and answers to no one but himself and his limitations. As this unravels, I'll truly see if these 16 months has been a wake up call for me.

3.01.2008

Intensified, A+ Certified...

Good news people: I passed my exams! I'm A+ Certified! Awwww yeeeeeeaaaahhhh!!!


It wasn't easy, but I finally accomplished what I set forth to do months ago. And it took me two weeks to do it =( Lemme explain: Last weekend (February 23rd), I took my first crack at the A+ exams. There are four exams total. One of them is required (the Essentials exam), and the other three are split into tracks. Depending on which one you want to do (IT Technician, Remote Support Technician, Depot Technician), you only have two exams to pass. My first time around, I failed the Essentials exam (by like, two friggin' questions) and passed the IT Technician exam. Today... I came back and spanked the Essentials exam in the ass! So thank you everyone for believing I could do it. If you were all able to follow me this far, I hope you can keep me some more company: I plan on taking a few more certifications soon!

Next in my sights include the CompTIA Network + Certification (kinda like the A+ certification's cousin, but dealing with networks and how to work them), the deceptively easy Microsoft Office Specialist Certification (which when you think of it, might not be worth it... stay tuned), and the big fish... the Microsoft Certified Systems Administrator Certification (well, it's big for me).

On another note, I'm still working out and beginning to see slight progress. If I keep this up, I should be fit by summer time (I might even feel comfy enough to remove my shirt in public).

Until then, stay tuned here for all your Panama news =)